Decisions

Ok, so Im a copycat. Sorry Molls, but after talking to you tonight, I decided that I needed to let it all out too.
For some reason my thoughts have been in constant motion this week. What the hell am I doing? Where am I headed? Am I going to survive? Its like the stars or whatever is up there, are all lined up and saying 'Let's make Rae Rae crazy!' YEAH!!!
So last night I had this dream. Weird strange dream. It was my wedding day. I was alone at the reception hall and waiting for guest to arrive...and my Groom! I didnt have a clue who it was. Then my Mom appeared. She was in charged of the guest list. (Which I have always told her she will have no control over in real life.) All of her friends were there, none of mine. Then walks in this stricking tall thin, dark haired man with the most beautiful grey blue greenish eyes I have ever seen.(they kind of reminded me of those husky dogs with the cool eyes) They sparkled! We danced our first dance and it was magical. I cant remember the song, but I do remember loving it. Then he turned into my friends ex-boyfriend that was a jerk and I got really sad.
Right now in my life, its time to make changes. Relationship, career, personal, you name it. Like I said before about the stars being lined up. I just would like them to lineup in my favor long enough to savor that first dance for the rest of my life.